There is this chilling quote about the Viet Cong that goes during the Vietnam war no matter where the U.S. went,'' the Viet Cong were already there.'' That was Anie. She was always there ahead of me--every thought I had was captured by her. Even if I got a little panicky about my health she would have control of the next thought. ''You can't be worried about your health if it means getting fat!!!'' She would always speak up. I was trapped between fat and dead. I could not out think her.