That Number In My Head

"How long have you been at 80 pounds?" I was at the doctor's office for an ear infection and his words pushed the button. Once I heard the number I HAD to go lower. Hearing my weight was more stressful than even seeing it on the scale. That's why even now I tell the doctor's office nurse to not tell me my weight. A number in my mind was like giving an alcoholic a drink-- I could not stop If 80 was where I was - 78 must be better.